Loss and the grieving process

When you’re young, you never really expect to lose people in your life that early. You think, “Hey they’ll be around for all my accomplishments and to see what I make of myself” almost as if people don’t die, or not your people anyway.

I learned this wasn’t reality. They do go, unexpectedly and all too quickly. I lost my grandma last year and it's still hard to believe it, even though I held her hand as she went. It’s honestly so bizarre to experience this tremendous loss, that I am left dazed and confused.

As I enter this new year, I’m fumbling around in the dark. I realize the impact she had on my life that is now gone, almost erased in a way.

I don’t have a lot of photos; I still need to record her voicemail just so I can listen to it when I miss her. Her house is being sold now, a place where I spent much of my childhood. I’m at such a loss without her, but I’m healing as best as I can, and it sucks. Let’s hope 2022 is a year of healing.